Sunday, December 6, 2009

5%

I’ve hit my first milestone! I’ve lost 5% of my total weight (84 lbs)! Okay, it’s only 4 lbs, but it’s still a milestone. I’m glad to see a little bit of progress, even if it is only 4 lbs. I can feel my mindset changing and I’m enjoying healthier foods. I don’t have many cravings anymore, which sure makes things a LOT easier. Tonight I made black bean brownies (they were VERY GOOD) and I ate two and then put the rest away - one for tomorrow’s lunch and the rest in the freezer. Yay me!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Day 4

I thought I’d make some goals to work for:

5% - 4 lbs – 4 new songs on iTunes (new workout music!)
10% - 8 lbs – a new book + a new song
25% - 20 lbs – mani/pedi and a new shirt
50% - 40 lbs – halfway there! – new pair of shoes and a facial
75% - 60 lbs – new bras and a pair of American Eagle jeans
80 lbs - final goal – brand new outfit from Banana Republic and a very short haircut

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Day 3

I had a headache all day today – I think it is because of the sugar detox. I really hope that I won’t have to go through this every time I eat a little bit. I hope that my weekly “free” meals won’t be a detriment to me. I guess I’ll just have to make sure that I stay in control and not have too much.

Food today wasn’t the best. I didn’t really have time for breakfast today so I grabbed a handful of Cheerios and ate a piece of fruit leather. I made sure to drink my water, so I didn’t feel too hungry right off. I did lots of grocery shopping today and that was hard because I hadn’t eaten very much. Thankfully, I was strong and didn’t buy anything I shouldn’t have had, but I did buy more than was on my list. I’m not sure that’s related to food.

For lunch I went to Sweet Tomatoes with a friend. I don’t know what to think about lunch. I made pretty good choices, except for the dressing (I didn’t choose the lowfat one), but I still think I had too much food. I got a plate full of salad to start out with (and I didn’t completely finish the plate), then I got cottage cheese with grapes (a small portion), a piece of wheat bread, and some asian soup. So the food I chose was good, but it was a lot. Still, I didn’t feel bloated or REALLY full when I left, but if I had all that food out in front of me at the same time, it would have looked like a lot of food. I don’t know…

I didn’t eat until dinner time, although I was feeling like I wanted a little snack. I drank my water and that helped…plus I was watching a movie so I didn’t notice as much. For dinner I made tacos – ground turkey, onions, brown rice, and chili beans as the base, with queso fresco, cilantro, tomatoes, avocados, spinach, and lowfat sour cream as toppings, and pan fried corn tortillas. I also had organic corn chips and salsa. It was all so wonderful and tasty!!! I am worried again that I ate too much. I don’t feel overly full, in fact, I had room for a little cutie orange. I just worry that I’m still not doing so well on portion sizes. I still need to train my body and stomach that less food is okay. Perhaps that will be my goal for the rest of the week.

On a positive side, I found these Stevia packets that I put in my tea tonight and it is wonderful! Actually, it’s almost too sweet. I might try just a half packet – so I can get used to less sweetener.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Here's to Hot Air Ballooning



Today was my first day practicing my new “Life Plan”. I’m excited to be eating better and living a healthier lifestyle. I’m going to be eating mainly fruits, vegetables, beans, and whole grains. I’m going to be exercising often and regularly. I’m going to be drinking a lot more water. Also, I won't be eating after 7:00 pm. Additionally, I’m going to be improving my mindset and trying to determine the cause of why I’m overweight. This journal is going to help me with that journey. I plan on studying Jillian Michael’s books to learn how to better improve my metabolism; also I will be using hypnosis to reprogram my mind and use mental techniques to control cravings and visualize my end goal.

I’m trying not to focus too much on size, weight, or appearance, even though I know that will come. I really want to be healthy. I want my body to respond to what I want it to do. I want to be active and participate in sports – I’ve never really been able to do a lot of things because of my weight and overall sedentary nature. That is going to change. I want to RUN! I want to rock climb. I want to play Ultimate Frisbee without feeling like I’m going to DIE afterwards. I want to play with my nieces and nephews without having to sit down after 5 minutes. I want to go hiking. I want to swim laps. I want to be able to bear children someday. I want to find a husband that I can do active things with. I want to go into a regular store in the mall and be able to find things that fit – and not just shoes or accessories! I want to have a healthier view of myself. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin so that I can have the confidence to do more – volunteer for things, talk to people, and be just generally more outgoing. My theme for my journey is “Be Healthy, Be Happy”. By being healthy – in all aspects of my life – eating, exercising, emotional, spiritual – I CAN BE HAPPY. And when I am happy, I am more able to be healthy. It’s a wonderful cycle!

I'm writing in a food journal most every day, but I thought I'd copy some of what I put in my journal here - as even more of a way to stay accountable. Plus to prove that I'm doing this!

As far as my food goes, today was HARD. I’m going through detox right now and everything looked appealing. But I ate what I had prepared and planned for and I was successful in not caving. Drinking water today was difficult too – I felt like I had to pee all day long! I didn’t quite get all my water in, but I did get most of it. I’ll try better tomorrow. The no eating after 7 thing was almost broken after FHE when there was a nice salad that looked really good. I went to take a plate and then looked at the clock – oops! It was 8:10 pm. I put the plate back and withstood the temptation. It’s almost nice to be able to say, “I don’t eat that”. It almost sounds snobby, but I like it. Maybe I like the control that it brings. It’s like, “I have the control to say no to that. I DON’T have to have it, and I’m not ruled by cravings or sugar.” I CAN DO THIS!